They all still mean so much to me, & it’s sad we don’t talk as much or not at all. I wonder what I may have done to cause this, & whether i can change it or not. Should I continue to fight for these friendships or just accept the distance …
- a huge thank you & a wonderful memory -
So i know this is like, uber cheesy but i just wanted to say thank you for everything you’ve helped me through in these past 3 years.
I didn’t really know what other way i could say this without it being public-ly cheesy all over facebook or twitter, phone calls would be awkward & forgotten easily… and in person its just not too great since i don’t have the best memory.
So i’m writing it all down for you!
I wanted to just say .. again - thank you.
For being there for me in our first year to grind out that late night essay! For the first time i stayed overnight in a library legit’ly doing work! And i don’t think i would have made it through without you! - watching paranomal activity in the LRC & then falling asleep in montys lecture cos we didn’t get ANY sleep that night & the red bull fuel had run out , LOL :P
Those crazy projects we had to do ALL NIGHTERS after ALL NIGHTERS for,
thank you sharing code, food, for keeping an eye on me as the night went on to make sure i didn’t fall asleep & then waking me up if i did! HAHA! (cheers man :P)
Keeping me on track with everything university related, I came to trust you so much & rely on you to help me get through that rough third year of dissertation & final project. Dude, i could not have passed university without you.
For being there to calm me down & advise me when my other friendship or relationships had problems pop up. I would have broken into much more tears & corrupted myself if i didn’t have you there to give me that real talk.
It was more of a mental thing, knowing that i wasn’t the only one pushing myself to get what i wanted - i’m thankful that you were here as my support :)
In basically just - growing up.
You are the genius that taught me how to use my mac!
And i work at the apple store now, LOL. how crazy is that
thank you once again for that!
Thank you for being so patient with me, i know i’m immature and i’m practically a child. Yet you were always so nice to me and understanding. If i didn’t understand something with my camera or in class you’d help me through it and send me everything i needed , until i could understand it all and stand on my own two feet with it.
I learned so much from you.
I don’t believe i could have graduated without you . honest.
I’m proud to know that we graduated together
& i wish you all the best in the future.
Not to say we won’t keep in touch, but i know that after university people part their separate ways & can go a long while without speaking.
I just wanted to let you know that you are a valuable friend of mine and i am SUPER thankful to have met you, hung out with you, got to know you, live with you, learn from you, and graduate with you.
life begins now :) good luck
stay in touch , keke
sorry for the lack of posts recently, i guess two jobs really do keep a girl busy XD and well i guess i’ve been up to more than just working too.
i finally graduated! WOOP ^___^! can’t believe three years flew by so quick. took lots of photos on graduation day using my DSLR (COMES IN HANDY! XD) - almost had a heart attack walking across the stage to shake the vice chancellors hand, my heels were really high and my legs were just slowly becoming jelly as i was queueing up >_< proud that i got to graduate with the TEAM still! its been an awesome rollercoaster ride. All the best to everyone i have worked with and met at Kingston :) See you in our reunion in 10 years! LOL!
Question for now is, where to next ? ~
So what do i do nowadays, well… work, see my bf & play mw3 - repeat XD that is my daily routine basically! and i love it :P its so chill. Work is wonderful, so good to be back - all the smiling familiar faces & just , doing what i do & getting paid ;D
Me and Ant are both so busy with working, it makes us distant a bit since we have other things on our minds but at the same time it makes me appreciate our time tgt even more when i do see him :)
- lastly MW3! LOL! i am on this game EVERYDAY! its lke a drug to me!
All the people i have met on this game are awesome, the banter is crude yet hilarious and i love everyones personalities. Met a crowd of HK players who are jokes and some UK players too who are friends of friends of friends i have - small world O_O” - but ye, fun times. The game itself, well - never thought i’d love to shoot people so much , lol
and well yeah that it pretty much all the update needed, lol
i think ive discovered mine
prob why i love kpop stars so much.. ahaha
that moment of panic when you get a call on a blocked number
and you just sit there contemplating whether to pick it up or let the voicemail get it
what makes it worse is when you are expecting a call
is it the university that you applied to work at?
is it the manager of UNI QLO who’s interview you turned down this morning?
or is it your old manager calling you back?
i didn’t pick it up. i panicked.
then a voicemail notification popped up on my phone - i played it.
the first line ’ Hi this is rodney… ‘
a smile smacked across my face - i’m back.
today could possibly be the best.. day… ever
BW. AG . RW. I OWE YOU GUYS!
i really hope you can look on the brighter side of life, everybody has their ups and downs, good and bad times, everybody makes mistakes - i know it feels like the world is against you right now but hurting yourself is never the answer.
so cutting your wrists are soothing? so it gives you relief?
its all psychological. you’re just causing more hurt to a woman who is already hurt enough. just stop.
keep your chin up and keep on going.
instead of dwelling on the ‘broken friendships’ you have - repair them
instead of being so negative about everything in life - try be positive
think about yourself. stop hurting.
not much else i can say now - mianhae.
if you ever need anything, i’m here~